5.31.2013

After All, It Was Only Just A Dream...

Oh goodness, how I love my furbabies. They have nothing to do with this post. They're just cute.

I know that yesterday I briefly mentioned my weird waitressing dreams that I used to get all the time. They were horrible. Simply everything that could go wrong while serving would go wrong --spilling coffee and food on the customers, forgetting to put in a tables order, food coming out cold, customer's being rude and angry, etc. I would wake up feeling so frazzled and anxious, and then I'd get upset with myself for letting a silly dream get to me so much! Because, after all, it was only just a dream.

But it's not just my waitressing dreams that I allow to get to me. Pretty much every morning I remember my dreams from the night before, and oddly enough, I remember them vividly. And sometimes one of those dreams will simply gnaw at me for days and days. 

Last night I had that sort of dream. An old friend of mine who I used to care about very much drew me a picture and gave it to me. It was simply a drawing of an oversized ying yang. He was so upset when he handed it to me. I wondered why he was sad and why he was giving this symbol of balance to me. Was he sad because of something I had done? Or because of his own circumstances? My heart broke as we both began to cry.

I then tried to get to my best friend's home. The home she grew up in and where we used to spend hours playing together as kids, but I kept getting lost. I simply couldn't find my way even though I've been to her home a million times before. I was so heartbroken. I felt like my world was falling apart. I needed to get to my best friend's home. I needed to talk to her about the ying yang and the sad boy and the tears we cried together. 

Then I woke up. 

For some reason, I cannot shake this dream. I know that it probably all means nothing (and sounds extremely silly to anyone reading this), but it left me with an empty feeling in my stomach and an aching in my chest. 

I think some part of me wants to believe dreams carry some sort of significance. I grew up hearing stories about how my uncle dreamed he saw his grandfather in heaven shortly after he died. Grandpa was doing what he loved most in life --fishing. The most memorable part of his dream was that my grandfather, who was missing a finger or two (yes, I'm serious), had all his fingers.... 

I believe that dream brought  comfort to my uncle, and that story has simply always stuck with me. Maybe that's why I seem to search for meaning within the seemingly random collection of thoughts, images, dialogues, and emotions that pass through my mind at night. Maybe I want to find comfort, peace, or understanding within these dreams. Maybe I'm simply searching for something to make out of nothing. 

Anyways, I'm not sure where I was even going with this post! I just needed to write this all down to feel better, I suppose. Thank you for bearing with me if you made it all the way to the end!! My lovely readers, you guys have that cozy spot in my heart right under my fur babies ;) 

So what do you think? Do dreams carry significance or are they simply just dreams? 

10 comments:

Sarah said...

I'm always envious of people who can remember their dreams, because I definitely am not one of those people. My favorite theory as to why people dream is that "dreams" are the brain's way of making sense of random neuronal firing. Other scientists think dreams are our deepest desires. I'm guessing it's somewhere in the middle, but that's all to say that maybe you just really miss your best friend?

chelsea LLinaBC said...

I have waitressing nightmares, a lot. they're the worst. then I wake up incredibly flustered. I rarely remember good dreams. but can't forget about the latter. grr.

ps: your fur children are the cutest. the BF & I are thinking about adopting a kitten. ahh!!

happy weekend - chels @ LLinaBC.com

Kenzie Smith said...

I have really vivid dreams a lot too, and some of them have left me feeling pretty unsettled. I think that dreams mean something, it's just trying to figure out what that is the hard part.

lost in travels said...

i'm really big into thinking that dreams have a meaning. maybe not ALL dreams but a lot i feel reveal how we REALLY feel about something. i've had dreams like that too where i wake up with a knot in my stomach, it's the worst! i say a little prayer, try to think of something good and go on with my day. those are always the worst to wake up to!

The Egg said...

sounds like you've got some anxiety going on and its coming out in your dreams (weird but possible!) i constantly have this dream that i'm back in high school and realize that i've been gone for years and never actually finished school. i'm constantly trying to find someone who can verify that i did graduate! its awful and i get it weekly. strangely, my mom says she used to have a similar dream when she was my age.... i definitely think there is meaning behind all of our dreams even if they don't make much sense~

xo the egg out west.

ffprncez said...

I believe that dreams have meanings. I also believe it's a way for those who have passed on to communicate with us and let us know they are with us. My father has been passed for 3 years almost and when I have dreams of him it is very comforting to me. I have also had dreams that I wake up from that are so realistic that scare me too. I had one where I was pregnant and I woke up checking my stomach and nothing was there. it was very surreal and a bit freaky. I love dreams!

Liz Luscomb said...

Oh my goodness. Finally someone else who dreams vividly and can remember them. My entire life, every night, I dream in such great detail.

I'm like you, there is a part of me that feels it all has some sort of significance, but there is so much detail to sort out that it seems overwhelming. And the really crazy, life-like dreams, can stick with me for a long time.

Dreams are such a funny thing...but also meaningful to someone who dreams on a daily basis. I understand where you are coming from.

Amber Marie said...

Hi Danielle,

I found your blog through Jenni at Story of My Life. I have been waitressing for years so I have those kind of dreams all. the. time.

I usually don't post links to my own blog in comments. I'm not trying to solicit my own site, but I think you would be interested in this post I wrote here because it has something in common with what you wrote in this post: http://www.afterapriltheblog.com/2013/05/the-last-time.html

Really like your blog, too. I shall be back :)

Becky Moseley said...

I am comstantly dreaming of random stuff. Sometimes there seems to be meaning behind it, other times..not so much!

Sarah and Stewart said...

I think ultimately dreams are just dreams, but they can be super upsetting! I often have these nightmares where I'm fighting with my mom and/or sister, or they've decided they don't like me anymore or something, and when I wake up I can't shake the icky feelings... sometimes for days!

I guess sometimes some if it might be based on your own insecurities or whatever, but mostly I think it's just random. :-)

Sarah @ Life As Always