you ain't cool 'til you pee on a stick
(if you get this you're my new best friend)
First of all, I'd like to thank all of you for the kind congrats and well wishes on our announcement! It made us feel so loved! (I think baby Tuner felt the love, too!) As soon as I found out I was pregnant I started recording my thoughts, feelings, and even my not so pleasant reaction to the news. I'm not going to lie, I was scared out of my mind when I discovered the news!
We found out we were for sure pregnant on our one year anniversary, although I'd have to admit that I knew the week before while we were vacationing in Cabo.. We got home from our Cabo trip Saturday night and I took my pregnancy test that following morning. Below is our little story and an inside glimpse of my true feelings surrounding the news since I wrote this just a few hours after finding out.
July 7th. It’s our one year anniversary, and the day we found out we’re pregnant.
I had a feeling a few days after we arrived in Cabo. Something deep down inside of me just knew. And that feeling, coupled with the fact that I couldn’t stomach the smell of red meat and almost upchucked every time I saw a taco (which is kind of hard to avoid in Mexico), simply confirmed what I already knew. I am pregnant.
The morning after we got home I rushed to the bathroom to take a home pregnancy test, and sure enough I saw those two florescent pink lines staring back at me. Steven knew I was taking the test. I already confessed earlier that week while we were in Cabo that I thought I was pregnant. His reply was that I was being a hypochondriac and to have another Margarita. Men. So he was standing right outside the bathroom door when I screamed, “STEVVVENNN!! Oh Sh*t!”
Yep. Those were my first words when I discovered our child was indeed growing inside of me.
I cried. And I’m not too certain they were tears of joy either. More like tears and fear, anxiety, and even a pinch of dread. The joy came later.
I then reached for my phone and googled, “I’m pregnant. Now what!” And I think that sums up my knowledge of what to expect these next 9 months...
We are so clueless of how to care for you, little babe. But we already love you so much.
Although, I wish I could take back the words I said when I discovered there was a miracle growing inside of me (!!!), I have to admit I'm glad I have such a candid reaction recorded to help me always remember those first few hours. 6 weeks later....we are still clueless, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still scared, but we're excited for the journey ahead.
So be prepared for lots of belly photos and disgusting bodily function updates! Okay, I'll keep the gross stuff to a minimum.. but seriously, I hope you stick around so that you can learn all about my growing relationship with public toilet bowls and how every time my symptoms change in the slightest I feel certain I'm going to die because this wonderful thing we call the world wide web can be so terribly scary when growing a baby. It's going to be a good time, ya'll. Promise.